Green.

If there is something that I have learned since I moved to a big city, it's that you miss color. 

The other day, as the first Spring breezes started dancing through the trees, I was walking to work up Bathurst Street in downtown Toronto. As I cleared the discount home supply store, with it's windows Winter-dusty with sleepy displays of throw blankets and insulating window treatments, I caught a glimpse of something I realized I hadn't seen in a while: the color green.

It took the rest of the walk to work to realize that I hadn't seen green in ages. When you live in a city, you see brown mud and brownstone, you see gray skies and gray cement, you see black shadows and black nights. You rarely see green. Unless it's traffic lights or the green pillars in China Town. Even the green vegetables braving the outside stalls aren't truly green.

So when I saw the patch of grass, with tulips poking through, it was like I was seeing color for the first time. I still look at that place as I walk by. I still can't believe that there is something in the world that is that bright. 

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Uncomfortable.

I'm a pretty open person. I don't have a problem trying new things, going to strange places or meeting unusual people. But there are still a good number of things that I draw the line at. I don't like being uncomfortable, at all. And there are a few things that perpetually make me uncomfortable:

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1. Heights: I honestly don't mind heights. I think everything looks amazing from super far in the sky but getting me there is a challenge. I feel so uneasy and uncomfortable in tall buildings or in planes.

2. Other couples fighting: Don't fight in front of other people, it's just A. rude and B. uncomfortable for everyone but you. But it really should be uncomfortable for you.

3. Languages I don't know: I know it sounds stupid and probably ignorant of me but when I'm in a situation where someone doesn't speak English or even in a situation where a thick accent is involved, I honestly get uncomfortable. It's mostly because I feel bad for not understanding them!

4. Being too full: I know this is random, but I hate when you eat too much then you feel uncomfortably full. It's such a shitty feeling!

5. Dealing with angry people: I am not good at dealing with angry people, especially if they are angry at me or angry at my general direction. It makes me sweaty and panic and I hate it. I had to deal with some stuff at work last night and I was so uncomfortable. I'm glad it's over but I'm honestly dreading going into work for the first time because I don't want anyone mad at me.

Imma Educate You!

It's the second day of my May blog challenge and I'm already hard pressed for inspiration. The prompt was to educate my reader on something I am good at. I think it can literally be anything. And I'm still have issues coming up with something. 

I know I'm good at things, but I'm having a problem coming up with anything I think is worth sharing. I'm not exceptionally knowledgeable on any one subject. I'm more of a Jack of All Trades, if you will. 

So instead of teaching you something, a how to, I'm going to share with you a really great song. Because it's warm outside, it's sunny and I'm in a good mood for once!

I guess you could say that I'm educating you on music ;) And love :)

My Story.

In efforts to spur my creativity and get myself back out there in writing, I'm going to participate in a May blog challenge. I have received 31 prompts, one for each day, and will be posting accordingly! I'm so excited for this! At the bottom of each post, I've linked to the inspiration for this blog challenge. Take some time to check out Story of my Life!

Day 1: My life in 250 words

My family via the 1990's (I'm in blue)

I was always the little girl with the big imagination. I spent my childhood in the Oregon countryside, making up stories and taking care of my pet chickens. I always loved school, inspired by reading the most. I enjoyed the work and reaped the benefits. I spent my free time playing soccer or lacrosse and practicing ballet. I mastered the chocolate chip cookie and sought the challenge of more advanced baking.

As I went into college, more terrified then I had ever been, I struggled to find my voice, my existence in the new world I had around me. I spent my first two years in school confused and lost in the theatre world but finally found my footing in journalism. College was a thrilling time. I did things I would never thought I’d do, met people who changed my life and faced many hardships as I transformed into an adult.

How a few years out of college, I’m on an amazing adventure with my long-term boyfriend, Jake, as we move across the country each year for his job. I’ve lived in some normal sounding places that in turn have shown me the complexity of human nature and American (and Canadian!) cultures.

Our next journey takes us from beautiful Toronto, Ontario to Fayetteville, Arkansas. I’m excited to see what happens to us next!

Ruby Sparks.

I just watched a movie called Ruby Sparks. It was a really beautiful story that struck home. It was about a young writer who imagines this girl, Ruby Sparks. But she is suddenly real, everyone can see her and talk to her but she came strictly from his mind. 

It's an interesting story and I enjoyed watching it play out. It's on Netflix, so go watch it :) 

The reason I bring this to you is because I think I found my new hair style. In August, for my 25th birthday, I want to cut my hair. I haven't had my hair shorter then my shoulders since I think high school? Well there was the one time my bestie and I got drunk and cut my hair off in my dorm room freshman year but I try to block that out.

Anyway, I think I like this style for me:

What do you think?

I am in Control.

...this is what I keep telling myself...