Monday, July 29, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
But then I sit and talk my life out loud and...it sounds pretty fucking awesome, if I don't say so myself. I move to different, exciting and occasionally exotic locations (I count Toronto as being exotic). I get to try a new job each year, meet new people, explore new areas, see all new things. It sounds fucking righteous, right? But it's hard. And I can't decide if I'm making it harder then it's suppose to be.
Is it my lack of motivation? Is it the fact that finding a job fucking sucks? Is it the fact that I'm alone all day while Jake's at work? Who's making me be alone? Is it me? Do I really need someone to hand me everything on a platter to make it easier? When will be find the inner motivation or drive to try to make myself happier?
Or the more simple approach: what the fuck am I doing?
It's when I get like this that it begins to take a noticeable toll on my relationship. I feel like I'm a fucking cat that someone's try to force into a carrier. Does that sound ridiculous? Because it feels ridiculous. But my thing is is that I can't figure out how to get myself out of the box, out of the forceful hands, out of this predicament. I knew what I was getting into when I decided to go on this leg of my journey, so why can't I accept it for what it's worth? Why can't I seem to accept what I actively chose to do?
I feel like now is a good time to interject that Jacob is possibly the best. most loving person I could ever want to be with. Everything he does, he does with me in mind. He is amazing.
So why am I being so selfish?
Why can't I just take control of my life like I know I can and I know I want to?
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Monday, July 15, 2013
So I have been in Arkansas about 3 weeks now and am thoroughly enjoying it!! Cute towns, hot weather, nice people. Yesterday we took a spontaneous trip about one hour out to Eureka Springs. It was a super adorable little town, with winding, hairpin turns, cobblestone streets, little shops and boutique restaurants. It was so quaint!!
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
I think I'm stuck in some post-festival depression. And being in a new place with no job (yet), no friends (yet) and no car to get away from the hotel room...I find myself in this little world all alone...and I love it!
It's so cool listening to these sets and know I was there! I was in that crowd! I remember the way it felt, the energy, the screaming, the singing, the fireworks, the way the crowd vibrated, the lights, it was the most intense weekend of my life. And I can't wait to go back.
Here are some pictures from professional sites (I can't post mine until we move into the new apartment on July 15th because I can't use my lap top) and here are some of my favorite sets!
|Kinetic Field, Mainstage|
Artists I saw here: Dyro, Porter Robinson, Armin van Buuren, Tiesto, Hardwell, Calvin Harris and more
Artists I missed here: Avicii, Zeds Dead, Dada Life, Nicky Romero, Afrojack, Dash Berlin, Above and Beyond, Steve Angelo and more.
BassCon: We didn't see anything here. It wasn't playing the type of music any of us enjoyed long enough to hang out, really heavy bass and drums. But the stage itself was epic looking. I mean, how cool is this stage?!
If I could spend every night at a place like this, I would.
I would go back in a heart beat.