Sunday, September 30, 2012

The Girl Comes Out.


I've been wanting to get more in touch with my creative side. To dig my imagination out and use it again. I've started spending time working on creative pieces. This is a piece I wrote a few months ago. I've reworked it and gotten it to a good place. There are no pictures. I want those to be in your mind, to be what you imagine them to be.

We’re always running, her and I, through the woods and the mud. It always seems like eternity, taking the biggest steps possibly in those heavy boots. Mud, grass and hay encrusted on the edges. She wears the same white, cracked straw hat with the bow, clutches the same pink notebook with the ballet slipper on it. The pages are twice their size, swollen with water, the ink running into each other like trickling streams to a river. A copy of Moby Dick tucked into the folds of her long skirt. It’s how she always travels, her hat, her books, her skirt and her friends. I just tag along, trying to keep up.
Down in the trees, the world slips away. Looking up, the blue-gray Oregon sky peeks through leaves that are clumped together with mosses and dead sticks. Our boots sink farther into the muddy banks of the creek as she navigates the waters with her memory. Up the creek to the left, we’d have to wind our way over the tree roots, through the brambles, to the waterfall, where the waters are brown and dangerous. Wandering straight ahead, we would maneuver over the log bridge that was once a tree hanging its head over the creek. After climbing the embankment, we could turn and survey the land below, being able to see almost everything we have. Our last option is following the creek towards to bark boat.
Picking our way down a small but steep path would bring us to the biggest piece of tree bark, so large she swore to me it was once a pirate boat. The far edge is still outlined with a bit of tree hanging onto its ship, not wanting to give it away. Old bottles, tins and wilting flowers sporadically dot the small crevices and natural shelves on the boat. Its here she’ll sit and pull out her journal, probably to complete a work of fiction or an illustration.
Her hours are spent in this valley, in this cool, dark valley, where the world outside flies by. She spends her time with the friends she creates there; the fairies that live in the knots in the trees, the pixies that reside up the slope in the thick part of the forest, somewhere she cannot go alone. Winds move branches, giving the brush around her so much life.
After tying up some lose end in her novel, she ventures off into the water, not afraid of a few inches of brown muddy water when her rubber boots will save her! We pick our way up the creek, ducking under overlying tree branches and cobwebs. The air cools dramatically once we are crouched over the water. Small water bugs skim the surface of pools gathering in tree roots and embankments. She trails her hands through the water, searching for any small treasure, an old, broken bottle, or an old tin can. Anything she finds can spur another day of adventure.
As time passes and the shadows rearrange themselves on the creek floor, the light starts to fade. I find myself back at the top of the embankment, the waterfall, the boat, the fairies all in the forest below. She’s a few steps down the way, right hand on a moss-covered tree looking back up at me. Her white hat in her hand, she waves. She’s weaved a few pretty leaves into the bow on her hat, a few fall out as her hat slaps her legs. She turns and, in a few fluid motions, she’s back down in the trees, only her faint outline in the darkening night air is left.
 I feel my heart beating as I come back to life, glass of wine in my hand, panting dogs to my side, a family waiting for me to finish walking the dogs before dinner. I find myself staring into the woods, a part of my heart longing to throw it all away and run back to the world among the trees. I blink hard and take one last look for her. But she is gone now, maybe to resurface at another time. She waits for me, you know, deep in the hidden places of my mind. She’ll always be ready to take me on an adventure, to pull me out of life and back into my mind. It’s easy to lose myself for a while, to lose my childlike inspiration for life, but I know she’ll find me and bring it all flooding back.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Saturday Drink: Mint Blues

Back in June, Jake and I spent a super awesome weekend in New York. We first attented Governor's Ball, a weekend long music festival, where we spent way too much time in the sun and way too much time partying. 

On that Sunday, we attended a brunch at Hotel Chantelle. It was a lovely brunch, with amazing cocktails, yummy food and a good atmosphere.
It was here that I had one amazing tasting summer beverage, that now I think of it, I could make it now! While it sounds simple, it tastes amazing. I'm sure your imagination could lead to a few different varieties too!

Mint Blues: Bacardi Light Rum, fresh mint and blueberries. Muddled and shaken with some ice.

Yes, that's it! Well, thinking back, I'm sure there was a splash of Sprite or soda water or something because it was bubbly. But the mint and the blueberries was just what I needed that day to sooth my summer sun burn.
Want to mix it up? Add raspberries, strawberries or peaches. Add a splash of champagne or a different flavor of rum. What about pineapple? 




Now, who could use one of these this afternoon?! 


Friday, September 28, 2012

Self Esteem Boost.

I started a new job this week that requires me to be around a lot of 13 year old girls who are as tall as me, the size of my calf and are 16 times as limber.

Ah it makes me miss dancing.

Beautiful.


Anyway, while I sit here on my second day, I started thinking....the bad thoughts. Why can't I be smaller or shorter or thinner or less curvy then I listened to the song they were dancing to, "If I Ain't Got You," by Alicia Keys and I realized something.

The people in my life will and have loved me for me. So why do I want to be different?
It's true I'm trying to lose some weight, I find nothing wrong with wanting to be the best person you can. But I constantly have to check myself and remember why I'm doing it. I have to check myself and remember that I am so loved and I am so lucky to be where I am and to be surrounded by those who love me (even if it is a sort of long distance surrounding....).

Will I ever wake up one day and love me for me? Will I ever wake up one day and think of myself as enough?

I sure hope so. I would really like that, to like myself. I think I'm getting there.
Right now, my biggest issue is my clothing. I've fluctuated drastic amounts in the past year. I was heavy then light now I'm "smoothing" out. But in that process, I got rid of a lot of my clothes. Now I have a very odd assortment of clothes, some are too small, some are too big and most are totally out of date or style.

Can material goods like clothing really affect the way you see yourself? I think yes.
Today, for example, I wore a cute shirt that is cut well for my body. But I had to pair it with some Capri's that are quite big (which I like deep down because when I bought them at the beginning of the summer, they were tight!). And my shoes...well lets not go there because my shoe situation is horrible. And I keep thinking, I just need a few pieces to make my wardrobe into what I want it to be, which is not this weird rejected look from the 90's.
So I'm going to try to keep my head up and eyes focused on the future. I'm going to try to keep my emotions sorted and my goals in mind. I'm going to stay rested and eat well and exercise when I can and not push myself too exhaustion.

This post was a random thought train that started pouring out. I have 22 minutes left of my super long day 2 of new schedule and I'm trying to keep my head up.

Do you have any pointers on how I can keep all these things in order or any style tips? E-mail me or leave a comment below!  


Blowing Your Mind.

Have you ever wondered how the Internet crosses the ocean and connects us here on America with those, say, in England? I have to say that I also assumed things but never really sought out the answer.

The other day, I was on the subway listening to TED talks. I chose one called What is the Internet, really? And in a matter of minutes, my mind was literally blown. Andrew Blum brought up such a great question: where does the Internet come from? Like physically. How is someone in Portland, Oregon connected to someone in Africa? I also assumed that, like with television, the Internet was beamed (like Scotty) up into space then shot back down onto Earth.

Boy, oh, boy, was I wrong!

The Internet is connected through cables. Cables that run through the ocean...
...the ocean, people. Please tell me I'm not the only person on the planet that didn't know this.
So how does all the information travel that far, and so darn fast? I'll tell you! It's legit a ton of cables....traveling thousands of miles...through the ocean...

See those yellow lines?
Those yellow lines are cables that connect the continents with Internet. How much cable does it take to connect the west of of the United States to Asia? 6,200 miles. And how does all that cable get to all those places? Manually. With ships, subamrines and people, thousands upon thousands of miles of cables are laid to connect the world today. Now who said the Internet wasn't a physical thing?!

As the cables reach the distant shores intended, a diver swims the cable to shore and walks it to land. Then, the cable is literally plugged into a building. And there you have it! Internet! Now who thinks that was feircly interesting? Because I do.

Diagram.



Cool.


Long day at the office.


Now I highly recommend going to TED talks and finding that talk. It's only like 15 minutes long and really interesting.


Did you know that the Internet was connected by cables? Do you know any other intersting facts that I should know about?








Friday Awkwards.

I have literally been up for only 2.5 hours, right? And I've already have 3 almost 4 awkward moments. And almost with the same 2 people...

In light of this whole week being awkward, I thought I'd post about it, hopefully making someone smile!

Chandler dancing is how I feel.

Awkward #1: When you get on the bus and see someone you work with...but you're not sure if he knows who you are...so you do that half wave, half brush your hair...Yup...

Awkward #2: When you stroll into work whistling Justin Bieber...and not even his cool new songs...it was "One Time." Then you pull your headphones out of your phone and, while expecting the embarrassing song playing to turn off like it usually does, it keeps playing...and it's Justin Bieber...aaaaaaawkward.....

Awkward #3: When someone says hi to you at work and you freeze, realized that you aren't invisible after all! But it's not the same person you awkwardly tried to wave to on the bus...

So far those are my awkward moments so far today.

Have you had a moment this week? Please share so I don't feel like such a loser.... 

Lastly, you know what's awkward? The way "awkward" is spelt...

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Weekly Weigh In: Is not having kids selfish??


Welcome back to the second installment of WEEKLY WEIGH IN where I share a variety of articles or blogs that I find interesting.

Let's start this Weigh In with an article that I've been brooding over for at least 5 days.

Joe O'Conner of the National Post says that married couples that don't have children are just plain selfish.

Summary: About 45% of married Canadian couples do not have children. That's in comparison to the 39% of Canadian couples that spend their time running kids to various sports practices, doing a multitude of dishes and packing lunches nonstop.

[That number sounds big, right? Well 'they' also counted couples who's children have moved out and moved on. So...I don't think the numbers are that impressive.]

O'Conner goes on to explain that the point of being in a pair, the point of searching for that other person, the point in finding love was to populate the world and give your parents come grandkids. But, that's not really the point anymore.

Married couples seem to have transformed into these independent people, trading toddlers and minivans for sports cars, fancy clothes and many exotic vacations. And O'Conner thinks this is selfish. Sure having kids is expensive and exhausting but it's a part of nature. More adults are spending their lives focusing on careers or haven't found the right person to have kids with. Eppie Lederer, aka Ann Landers of the advise column world, says that married couples with no children live basically in a lonely, empty world trying to fill the void with material things.

O'Conner ends the article quoting Lederer/Landers who says that a 'normal' adult does not appear rested, in shape and youthful. 'Normal' is tired, gray, haggard. O'Conner closes the article by asking, "and what will become of those trim, fit and fat-free-yogurt loving folks when decrepitude inevitably creeps in; when they age, as we all inevitably do, and the children they chose not to have aren't around to look after them?"

I say: who cares??

Now, I know we all want this, right?!


I think that if a couple together decides they don't want to have children, then who's to say they are selfish? Now I know that I want to have children some day and I understand the financial and emotional strains that will bring but that doesn't sway my feelings. But I have nothing against anyone who doesn't want children. I don't think you're selfish, I just think you have a different view on life then I do.

I want to address the section where O'Conner talks about the point of being in a couple. I completely agree that, in the past, the point of being in a couple was to produce a family and populate the world. But like most things (culture, society, rules, regulations, politics, views), things change. What once was a social norm, say, back in 1960 may not be the norm in 2012. Why? Because the world and the societies we reside in are ever changing.

The question I want to address isn't why married couples aren't having children, it's why are children having children? But that's a questions for another day I think...

Do you think married couples that don't have children are selfish?


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

7 Questions: #13

I think I've posted this before but I just love it so.


1. Describe your perfect day:
My perfect day begins without an alarm clock. To begins with some fresh coffee and pancakes. Followed by from productive blogging then a nice long work out. After a refreshing shower, I put on something that makes me feel good and pretty. The afternoon is filled with bike riding and picture taking, maybe lunch at a cute cafe on the lake. The evening approaches, bringing a good meal and drinks with friends. Good food, good friends, good conversation and good music. The perfect ending to the perfect day.

Now all I need are the friends :-/

2. What was something you were afraid of as a child?
My fear has actually spilt over into adulthood, too. When I was a kid, my dad made my sister and I raised beds. They were three feet off the ground and had drawers under them. Great for storage. When I was a kid, however, I was always afraid of letting my feet or hands hang off the side of the bed. I always thought someone or something would grab them. That fear is something I still have!

3. What is something you are afraid of today?
While I am still afraid of the normal things for me, deep water, heights, falling etc. I have this one that has developed over the past year or so since I moved to a more metropolitan area. I occasionally get these day dreams that some crazy street person gets on the subway and holds it hostage. Basically, sometimes I get scared that I'm going to get killed. It's nothing that gives me social anxiety or prohibits me from taking the subway everyday, but something I think about it and it gives me chills. There are crazy people out there and I hope I can go my whole life without meeting one. (Sorry for being morbid...)

4. Would you rather be obsessed with yourself or someone else?
Both would make people not like you. While I wouldn't want to seem narcissistic, I would rather be obsessed with myself then someone else. You can't really get into trouble with the law for being obsessed with yourself after all...   

5. What is your favorite restaurant that you could visit over and over and never get sick of?
The first that came to mind was this little pizza place that opened back in my home town. Mi Famiglia. It's a family run little place that doesn't seat very many but my parents have gotten to know the owners and now going there is one of my favorite things to do when I go home. Everything is fresh and tastes like mom just made it. And I love their hand tossed pizza. It's just so delicious.

6. What is one food that you used to hate but now enjoy?
Man, I've had so many experiences where I used to hate something and now I love it. I used to hate mushrooms but I'm starting to love them. I still can't eat them raw or in big chunks (it's a texture thing) but I love putting them in everything.

7. Fill in the blank: Star (Struck)